The Debts We Pay

The problem with incurring debts from deities and spirits is this; they will expect you to deliver and it will be on your mind every day until you fulfill your end of whatever bargain you struck. Or, as is the case with this current blog, it will be on your mind every day because there is no end in sight.

I previously wrote on spirituality, paganism, and religion before but pulled the plug because I felt I had reached the end of that period in my life. Here recently, however, I have asked for something big, probably the biggest request I have ever made, and the debts incurred have been large and I have a feeling the tasks set before me aren’t only about keeping a promise but tracking my evolution as I continue this path.

My current practices have taken a dramatic shift. I am working more with planetary magic, divination, ceremonial ritual, and ancestor worship. My religion remains Dionysian at the core, but other entities have made themselves known to me as well. Primarily Lucifer and it’s Lucifer who instructed me to begin writing again- a fitting debt considering I had no interest in writing again at all.

But isn’t that how it seems to be? When I began my relationship with Dionysos I worked in theatre for years despite not enjoying it and doing everything in my power to move into another field. Lucifer came into my life due to performing research on him for someone else. If that doesn’t smack of something that seems like irony but isn’t I don’t know what does.

In the end, I have no idea what this blog is going to be about. I have no idea what direction it is going to go in. All I know is this is the first post. A first of many I imagine and that kind of worries me.

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